The person behind Present Again
My name is Raul.
I was like you.
I’m not a therapist. I’m not a doctor. I’ve been exactly where you are: lost, scared, with no idea what was happening to me. I spent nearly 3 years finding my way back from DPDR, and turned it into a program so you don’t have to do it alone.
The night everything changed.
I was 18. At a friend’s house, I unknowingly smoked something laced with cocaine. Within minutes, everything started moving. I was vomiting. My heart was pounding. They called an ambulance.
I woke up the next day in a hospital, sedated. When I came home, nothing felt real anymore. Being in a car felt like a video game. Every thought connected back to that night. I didn’t understand what was happening — and nobody around me did either.
A TikTok video. 180,000 likes.
I found a video describing the exact sensations I was experiencing — in first person. Thousands of comments: “this is exactly what I feel.”
“For the first time in months, I wasn’t alone. That’s when I learned the name: Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder. And knowing the name changed everything.”
I read everything — forums, neuroscience papers, medical studies. Understanding why the brain creates this state was the turning point. It’s not madness. It’s a protective mechanism. And it can be undone.
I built the program I wish I had found.
Everything I learned — the neuroscience, the daily exercises, the structure, the rules for the hardest moments — compressed into 34 days. Clear. Day by day. Page by page.
I’m not selling a miracle. I’m sharing the exact path that worked for me, structured so that you don’t have to waste time figuring it out alone.
Why this is different
Built on what I learned, not what I guessed
I spent years reading everything I could find on DPDR and testing it on myself. The program is what held up.
Built from lived experience
3 Years of personal recovery. Every page was written by someone who knows exactly what it feels like — from the inside.
Born from a real community
These routines were tested and shared with other people living DPDR before they became a program.
You can reach me directly
I reply personally. No bots, no support team. If you’re going through this, you deserve a real answer from someone who gets it.
If any of this sounds like you — you’re in the right place.
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